Since attending the WZR at Pinebush (2004) I have been listening to tapes of John's talks frequently while driving. Earlier today, driving along and listening, John's question: "Are you that question?" in one of his talk segments about "Tell me who you are." triggered something which caused me to exclaim: "That's it!". It is difficult to explain the shift in my definition of "I" and certain physiological changes which resulted. Here's a try at it.
As my mind's vision/conception of what "I" is shifted to the entity asking the question, it was like a merging of the conventional "I" with an undefinable ******* asking the question. I cannot come up with any words to describe ******. "Nothing" comes to mind, but not quite. For quite some time, there was only ****** doing the driving and it was the only thing in my consciousness. Simultaneously, my body seemed to be merged with the ******, which proceeded to play with gestures, vocalizations, and gleeful observations of the surrounding, moving countryside as ******/body was driving along. Perspective was distorted as well, as distances appeared flattened, as if viewed on a movie screen.
The experience filled me with joy, a feeling of freedom and release from all anxiety. It has lasted from inception, about 3:00 PM, right through the practice session led by Guo Yuan Fa Shi at the Centre this evening. Another odd thing about my perception of time, is that when I first wrote the previous paragraph, I had written that it took place yesterday. However, by going back over the sequence of events I can pin down historically, I calculated that it must have been about 8 hours ago.
What can you tell me about this?
