Skip to main navigation Skip to main content Skip to page footer
Western Chan Fellowship logo Western Chan Fellowship logo
  • Home
  • About
    • About the WCF
    • Lineage
      • Lineage
      • Lineage Chart
      • Chan Master John Crook
      • Chan Master Sheng Yen
    • Teachers
    • Liturgy
      • WCF Liturgy
      • Retreat Centre Opening Ceremony
      • Mealtime Ceremonial
      • Maenllwyd Mandala
      • Heart Sutra Transliteration
      • On Pursuing that which Leaves no Tracks
      • Exhortation, Benediction
      • Heart Sutra
      • Diamond Sutra
    • Donations
    • Contacts
      • Contacts
      • Contact WCF Administrator
      • Avoid the spam folder
      • Keeping in Touch
      • Links
    • Gallery
    • Membership
    • History
    • Documents
      • WCF Documents
      • Terms and Conditions
      • Constitution
      • Policies
    • Supplies
      • Dharma supplies
      • Make a Meditation Bench
    • Search
    • About this Website
  • Retreats & Events
    • Considering a retreat? Read on:
    • Retreats & Events Calendar Select a retreat or other event from our calendar
    • General Retreat Information Pre-booking information and advice
    • Retreat Booking How to book a place on a retreat
    • Preparing for Retreats Preparing to attend a retreat
    • Venues Venue information
      • Shawbottom Farm
    • More Events and Retreats Non WCF events which may be of interest
    • Retreat Reports Reviews and testimonials
  • Online Activities
    • Online activities
  • Meditation Groups
    • Local Chan Groups
    • Local Groups Map
    • Birmingham
    • Bristol
    • Cardiff
    • Derbyshire Dales
    • Forest of Dean
    • Glastonbury
    • Hatfield / Welwyn Garden City
    • Kent
    • Leek
    • The Lizard
    • London
    • Manchester
    • Mid-Wales
    • Newbury
    • Nottingham
    • Portsmouth
    • Scottish Chan
    • South Devon
    • Swindon
    • Warsaw - Poland
    • Winscombe
    • Other Groups
  • Resources
    • Dharma Resources
    • Selected Articles Articles for newcomers
    • Retreat Reports Reviews / testimonials
      • Retreat Reports
      • Western Zen Retreat
      • Silent Illumination Retreat
      • Koan Retreat
      • Other Chan Retreat
      • Other Retreats
    • Dharma Library Many articles on Chan Buddhism, meditation and retreats
    • New Chan Forum
    • Chan Magazine
    • Free Books
    • Books Sheng Yen / John Crook
    • Reading List
    • Good Reads
    • Audio Video
  • News
    • News
    • Newsletters
    • Mailing Lists
  • Login
    • Login
    • Set Preferences
    • Registration

You are here:

  1. Western Chan Fellowship
  2. Resources
  3. Dharma Library
  4. Retreat Poems

Retreat Poems

(Written during a three month solitary retreat at Mount Amiata in Tuscany, Italy).

Sitting by the doorstep 
on a dusty sheepskin 
in the early morning, 
a hazy sun warms my cheeks. 
I wonder what will
come to mind? 
I remember my dreams. 
My thoughts are like 
a bird tied to a pole 
by a long string. 
they fly in endless circles 
under the illusion of freedom.

Alone 
all alone 
in an empty room 
in an empty house 
on a wind-blown hill.

What do I feel? 
What do I really feel? 
Lonely?
Yes.
The images speak for themselves...

Nothing moves, only silken mist 
translucent as a moth's wings 
hovering between the cliffs.

Silently the mountain breathes, 
recumbent like a dragon 
coiled upon the world beneath.

Dark leaved candytuft and thyme 
are secretly disclosed in rocky 
gardens, miniature and wild.

Sitting quietly in solitude 
I lose myself, absorbed 
by the mountains sombre mood.

Today the mountain tops 
are clothed in mist 
and a heavy scent of rain 
pervades the valley. 
A north-west wind blows hard 
making the shutters bang. 
At night, I sit by the fire 
with a candle.
I don't like the smell of the oil lamp.


The first snow came 
amazing me, as it always does
with its perfect beauty. 
Icicles hang from the gutter 
jagged as dragon's teeth. 
Walking outside, the wind 
blows the snow in my face:
I can scarcely see my own footprints!

The wind howls outside 
the world is grey with mist 
I drink tea beside the stove 
and think of you.

Daylight drifts into disguise 
night begins her dance 
a bat flits by... 
rocks of ember come alive 
earth and sky embrace 
a presence of the dart-eyed 
goddess has arrived.

As outer pre-occupations dwindle 
inevitably the stream runs on, 
but since I find its going no-where 
there are no conclusions to be drawn.

Now, looking inwards I find 
the same stream going nowhere, 
in practise I can only do my best. 
I clearly see how I am trapped.

Why carve words out? 
All is poetry 
to the mind's eye 
as it is.

Why tamper 
with reality?
The wind has changed 
it blows from the south 
with spring and the scent 
of the sea..... 
the trees and grasses 
now bow to the north; 
the mountain remains unchanged.

In the clear blue sky a skylark sings, 
the wind sighs in the winter broom, 
the only other sound is the "ting" of the 
wind in the wind chimes beside the door.

Too involved in poetry 
I let the stove go out.

Outside my window 
the mist shape-shifting 
makes phantoms of bushes 
the valley is shrouded. 
Does the mountain exist?

Why am I afraid of clarity 
and sensitivity? 
Because the strength of simplicity 
is stunning!

Everything is perfect
there is nothing to be attained.
I am here alone drinking tea beside the stove.
I never guessed what perseverance
is required to re-attain simplicity.

Why do I search for the poignant words 
giving birth to poetry?
Is it to share
the quiet beauty of my isolation? 
For whom do I write and round my thoughts. 
trying to touch the essence of my being?

I stand on the bridge between 
this world and another:
the play of light and darkness 
on the water makes me dizzy.

You said 
that when we met 
you'd wear a feather
so that I could recognise you. 
but when you came 
it was I
who wore the feather.

Back

Related articles

  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Grieving for Millie
    05-04-2025 David Valentine-Hagart
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    An Anonymous Haiku
    06-01-2025 Anonymous
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Five Haiku
    01-08-2024 Jos Hadfield
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Two Poems: Quiet Mind; Day Retreat in York March 2015
    21-07-2024 David Valentine-Hagart
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Purification
    07-01-2024 Jake Lyne
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    My Sheltered Place: a Haibun
    31-10-2022 Andy Henderson
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Stories from the Zoomiverse: A Virtual Sangha in the Time of Covid
    06-07-2022 Richard Spalding
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Haibun, by Eddy Street
    05-05-2021 Eddy Street
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Poems, by Steve Grundy
    05-05-2021 Steve Grundy
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Poem for John
    29-01-2018 Fiona Nuttall
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Self Ascending
    15-12-2011 Paul Atherton
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Ode to 'It'
    15-12-2011 Jane Spray
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Epiphany
    01-12-2009 Ken Jones
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Travelling Verses - Nanjing
    01-10-2008 George Marsh
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Welsh Mandala
    31-12-1998 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Chan Attitudes
    01-08-1998 Chan Master Sheng Yen
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Hi There
    01-06-1998 Ryder Lake
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Beyond
    01-06-1998 Magdalena Babdyga
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    The Fenceless Gate
    01-06-1998 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Defusing an Ancient Curse: Climbing the Hill of the Hag
    01-03-1998 Ken Jones
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Visiting Mother
    01-06-1997 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Comet Above The Yard
    31-03-1997 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Indian Pilgrimage 1996
    01-11-1996 Natasha Caitlin Lawless, Julia Lawless, John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Welsh Winter: Maenllwyd
    01-06-1996 John Crook
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Silent Illumination
    03-06-1995 Martin Tebbs
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Sonata
    01-06-1995 Roger Green
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Hermit at Stallion's Rock
    01-09-1994 Ken Jones
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Ode to Hypocrisy
    01-06-1994 Ian Finlay
  • placemarker calligraphy
    The Tree
    01-06-1994 Julia Lawless
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Ystrad Haiku
    01-06-1994 Ken Jones
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Words of Encouragement to Disciples
    01-04-1994 Chan Master Sheng Yen
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Dad
    25-12-1993 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    In Chinese Mode: Thinking of a Friend
    01-09-1993 John Crook
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Darkness
    01-06-1992 Ron Henshall
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Taliesin, at the Court of Maenllwyd
    01-06-1992 Roger Green
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Dharma Hunger
    01-06-1992 Eddy Street
  • placemarker calligraphy
    Meditation on the Seven-Twelve
    01-06-1992 John Senior
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Some Images of India
    01-06-1992 Ken Jones
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Winter Buddha
    01-07-1975 John Crook
  • an image from the article, such as the author or an illustration
    Maenllwyd
    01-07-1975 John Crook

  • Author: Julia Lawless
  • Publication date: 01-10-2005
  • Modified date: 30-07-2025
  • Categories: Highlighted 2005 Poetry Julia Lawless Others
  • Western Chan Fellowship logo Western Chan Fellowship CIO
  • Link to this page
  • Dharma Resources
  • Selected Articles
  • Retreat Reports
  • Dharma Library
  • New Chan Forum
  • Chan Magazine
  • Free Books
  • Books Sheng Yen / John Crook
  • Reading List
  • Good Reads
  • Audio Video

©Western Chan Fellowship CIO 1997-2025. May not be quoted for commercial purposes. Anyone wishing to quote for non-commercial purposes may seek permission from the WCF Secretary.

The articles on this website have been submitted by various authors and the views expressed do not necessarily represent the views of the Western Chan Fellowship.

Permalink: https://w-c-f.org/Q372-326

View our retreat programme August 23
Western Zen Retreat
Residential Retreat
5 Nights
September 7
Kent Chan Day Retreat
Day Retreat
 
September 26
Weekend Chan Retreat
Residential Retreat
2 Nights
October 4
Investigating Koans
Residential Retreat
7 Nights
October 25
Spiritual Faculties, Spiritual Powers
Day Retreat
 
November 15
Silent Illumination Retreat
Residential Retreat
7 Nights
November 29
Western Zen Retreat
Residential Retreat
5 Nights
December 7
Kent Chan Day Retreat
Day Retreat
 
Cookie Settings
X

We are using cookies.

We are using cookies on this web page. Some of them are required to run this page, some are useful to provide you the best web experience.

I accept

Individual Cookie Settings

Only accept required cookies.

Privacy Notes Imprint

X

Privacy settings

Here is an overview of all cookies used

Cookies for Statistics

Statistics cookies anonymize your data before use. This information will help us to learn how visitors are using our website.

Show Cookie Information

Hide Cookie Information

Google Analytics

Google analytics is a service which provides statistics and analytical tools that help us understand the activity on the website.

Provider:Google Inc
Cookie name:_ga,_ga_gtag
Cookie lifetime (days):365
Privacy policy:https://policies.google.com/privacy
Host:google.com

Save

BackOnly accept required cookies.

Privacy Notes Imprint

Sitemap

Contact

Western Chan Fellowship CIO

Office 7511
PO Box 6945
London W1A 6US
England

https://westernchanfellowship.org/contact-us

Contact us

Credits

Sun icon by gravisio from Noun Project (CC BY 3.0)
Bed icon by IconMark from Noun Project (CC BY 3.0)
Computer icon by Jony from Noun Project (CC BY 3.0)

  • Facebook
  • X
  • Instagram
  • YouTube